Featured Recording Artist
joshua sanders born october 19, 1996, also known as 'holdawn' is a recording artist from baltimore, maryland.
'joshua' comes from the arabic word yahweh, meaning salvation or to save.
holdawn, known for his self-reflective lyricism, is vulnerable in vividly guiding his audience down his dark path to redemption, exposing himself and his mistakes.
Holdawn - Homesick
Directed by Julius Jimenez & Holdawn Edited by Julius Jimenez *lyrics below* I aint been home in a minute I keep postponing my visit I flew my bro out intending on letting him move in with me Im sorry it aint work out I put my heart before business I shouldn't have did that Im sorry Hope you still know you my nigga And to my family I miss ya I missed some calls I'll return them Im bad at keeping up with you I've learned a lot since I left you I've done some wrong since I left you Wish I could come to the rescue Before somebody else dies Someone back home I can't get to (fuck) Cause I'm so far from alone Cant leave that soft alone I feel like Im all alone They freed my dawg in June I just got done talking to him But they put out a warrant again So now he done went on the lam n ran Hope I get to see you again Hope I get to see you again I just hope I get to see you again Still got the same number. HIT ME Couldn't bring everyone there with me When I left said she wished she never met me Wish you weren't afraid to tell me if you missed me All I hear from now is don't forget me Don't let me don't let me When I asked I wish you'd Come with me come with me Wish you tried wish you came When I got on the plane Yeah I popped and I drank Just to hide from the pain Tried to stop but I can't Man I died at nineteen So how the fuck did I just make twenty-one? On second life and I don't need nine Look what you made me do I'm going crazy Back in the day we barely left State st. Baltimore raised me but I couldn't stay G shit wasn't never gravy so can't shit phase me Come a long way G the wrong way saved me It's niggas in cages and pushing up daisies So many faces come and go and maybe I remember vaguely but 1st off I remembered you. I went back home and came back Baltimore raised me you can bank that Chicago where I made my name at Hold on let me throw a drink back They think it's that but it ain't that They think I'm scared and Imma hang back I show no fear, embrace the pain I died out there and got my game back Tell me how it feels to walk without me Still popping hella pills you lost without me Watch me chase dollar bills and talk about me Saw you head for the hills while dogs surround me Them puppies a squeal if they fall in county You don't love me forreal I already knew I already knew I already knew I already knew I already knew.. Prod. LIL RAWR xD